I procrastinate so much it’s crazy, even to do simple tasks. This was supposed to be posted last week but a bitch was celebrating okay so i’ll be posting this weeks and last weeks this week kkkk sorry xoxo 🙁 Not gonna lie I’ve been moving a little lazier since I started smoking again. That might influence my procrastination even more
But anyway, what am I waiting for? Is it money? Confidence? The right time? I don’t know. That one phrase alone described like 3 different projects/ goals I have not started working on. Just watching time pass by. It’s great to have ideas and talk about them but you also have to strategize on how it’s going to get executed. Or just start them maybe idk.
It will never be the right time to start anything new. You will always have stuff going on. Life doesn’t stop just because you have a new idea, a new project that needs all your attention. Life will simply keep going, the planets will still turn, the sun will still rise and set, so time is really just an illusion.
Many years ago I told myself I’d move one day and I never did it because I was scared to get out of my comfort zone. Not even in a sense that like going out there to the world but more like I am not trying to get out of my old ways which is literally keeping me in a cycle. I feel like I’m walking in circles since I don’t want to get out of these cycles. Now I’m kinda getting fed up, my level up is literally waiting for me to get out of my own way.
I’m receiving confirmations from everywhere and anywhere about this but I choose to ignore them. Funny be not to get out of my own way to fully experience the blessing. One thing I know about God is that he is so quick to give us what we want but we are so caught up in our past self that we don’t handle his blessings properly. To cope we make it seem like it wasn’t for us when it was really ourselves that was mishandling the blessing. I am taking it in with the current blessings I am experiencing. Instead of doing better I’m going back to my old ways even though I already graduated from those ways. Maybe that’s all I’ve known and comfortable with. Sometimes a comfort zone is really what’s holding you back from a lot. It’s a blessing and a curse because sometimes your comfort zone won’t be your best self nor best conditions so since you’re used and conditioned to that chaos anything new that’s good or bad will be hard to maintain since that is not what you’re comfortable with (used too).
To sum it up God will place ideas in your head. Everywhere you will go will keep reminding you of the promise or the idea he put in your heart. The life you’re living for everybody else/ the world will keep getting worse until you answer to what God has planned for you. Until then good luck.