Everything is coming to me. I’ve buried a lot of things. Made peace with a lot of things. You know when you get to a point where you’re okay. You don’t even care for it anymore. It’s like a heavy weight of your heart that’s walking away for good. I felt that with so many things. I’ve buried it, made peace and finally moved on from it
Now I’m happier, my heart feels lighter, the shame kinda lifted itself up. I kinda feel like me again or well i’m trying to be the new improved her. And honestly there’s something that I wanted to reconcile with and it’s funny because I feel no way about it. It does not feel like pain anymore. I’m done. I stopped criticising the way I did. I’m only really focused on me. My energy is just for me. I don’t even have it in me to do things if i don’t want to. I’m being tested left and right but funny enough I’ve been passing.
I’m over everything. I don’t want to be everything to everyone anymore, im like not identifying with it. I stay forcing myself to do things and I end up the one that’s drained, lost money, time, energy etc. I don’t want to live the same year next year. Only reason I’m saying this is because themes from 2022 & 2023 have been very similar but like in 2022 I was going through but I feel like I’m growing through it this year since I’m fed up with the outcome.